Oh! I got caught slacking off!
For the past couple of weeks I’ve been slugging away at work trying to figure out how to sell cat food, medicines and phones. Sometimes I take my work home with me. During the off times I’ve been reading magazines (Theme, Monocle, Giant Robot), roaming the city (hipsters everywhere!) and eating the best foods I’ve ever eaten in my life.
The problem with this blog is that it’s dependent on me making connections between all the things I see to complete a thought. Lately, I’ve been spending all energy making connections so that I can sell more cat food, medicines and phones, so that when I come home, I’m mentally exhausted. This wouldn’t be a problem if work was slow or freakishly boring, but I don’t know how to keep my damn mouth shut. For sure I’m not suffering from the lack of stimulation. Y’all have been sending me some really cool stuff to read and think about. It’s just the thinking part that’s coming slow to me when I’m off the clock.
But that brings me to another thought: will it be like this for the rest of my life? It scares me to think that idea generation is a zero sum game for me. I would hate to give all my brain power up to the likes of cat food, medicines and phones. Maybe I should take it easy. Maybe I should suck it up. Maybe I should expect more of myself.
Expectations is also another big thing for me. I never wanted this blog to be a content dump where I repost stuff that other people have posted. Despite what some may think (and the content you see on here), I’m selective about the things I post. I don’t like to talk about what’s going on in my life because it looks like a rerun of a bad sitcom.
Whatever the case is, I’ll get out of this mental funk. There are too many things going on here for me not to at least be a sarcastic ass about it (if you were with my when I was in Shanghai, you know…).